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Thursday, January 24, 2013
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Genetic Mutant...
Laney has been diagnosed with TRAPS. It is a genetic, Periodic Fever Syndrome. The Genetic Testing she was sent for, back in October came back w/ the results a few weeks ago.
When her Rheumatologist called and told me her results, he was surprised, as was I. All along, we thought, and were assuming she had PFAPA. This fits her symptoms just about perfectly. And on the positive side, it is not genetic and children usually grow out of it. If they do not grow out of it, symptoms lessen and there are no side effects, whatsoever. Her Dr. was actually going to skip the genetic testing b/c he felt so sure this is what she has. You need insurance approval to get genetic testing done. Thank God her insurance (thank you CHIP) approved it and we were able to get the entire panel of tests done, instead of just two or 3. (There are 7 periodic fevers).
It was hard to hear that she had this genetic mutation. If you search TRAPS, online (which I was told not to do), it sounds scary. Her Dr reassured me that she has a 'mild' case of it. Which, I am assuming means her mutations can show that. She should not develop amyloidosis and her symptoms should lessen as she gets older. I hope this is the case. No one wants to hear there is something wrong with their child. And this was difficult for me to face. Obviously, Dr.'s can be wrong. They are only human. And I am a bit of a pessimist (esp when it comes to my children's health). I always think the worst and blow it out of proportion. I know there are parents out there that are dealing with a child that has an illness way worse that what Laney has. I feel selfish for getting upset about Laney's DX. Honestly, I can't help it. I (we all do) just want my kids to grow up and have a happy, healthy life.
On a different note, as soon as I got off the phone w/ Dr. G (Laney's Rheumatologist) I started blaming Matt for her 'mutation.' It is Autosomal Dominant, which means only one parent has to have the 'mutation' for the child to get it. After reading more into it, they said there have been cases where no family members have the mutation and a child still has it. It usually occurs at conception. Also, there are people who have the mutation and have never had one symptom of the disease. Genetics are weird. And go figure, Laney has a mutant gene. Only Her! ha! ;)
When her Rheumatologist called and told me her results, he was surprised, as was I. All along, we thought, and were assuming she had PFAPA. This fits her symptoms just about perfectly. And on the positive side, it is not genetic and children usually grow out of it. If they do not grow out of it, symptoms lessen and there are no side effects, whatsoever. Her Dr. was actually going to skip the genetic testing b/c he felt so sure this is what she has. You need insurance approval to get genetic testing done. Thank God her insurance (thank you CHIP) approved it and we were able to get the entire panel of tests done, instead of just two or 3. (There are 7 periodic fevers).
It was hard to hear that she had this genetic mutation. If you search TRAPS, online (which I was told not to do), it sounds scary. Her Dr reassured me that she has a 'mild' case of it. Which, I am assuming means her mutations can show that. She should not develop amyloidosis and her symptoms should lessen as she gets older. I hope this is the case. No one wants to hear there is something wrong with their child. And this was difficult for me to face. Obviously, Dr.'s can be wrong. They are only human. And I am a bit of a pessimist (esp when it comes to my children's health). I always think the worst and blow it out of proportion. I know there are parents out there that are dealing with a child that has an illness way worse that what Laney has. I feel selfish for getting upset about Laney's DX. Honestly, I can't help it. I (we all do) just want my kids to grow up and have a happy, healthy life.
On a different note, as soon as I got off the phone w/ Dr. G (Laney's Rheumatologist) I started blaming Matt for her 'mutation.' It is Autosomal Dominant, which means only one parent has to have the 'mutation' for the child to get it. After reading more into it, they said there have been cases where no family members have the mutation and a child still has it. It usually occurs at conception. Also, there are people who have the mutation and have never had one symptom of the disease. Genetics are weird. And go figure, Laney has a mutant gene. Only Her! ha! ;)
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Dentist
We took the girls to the dentist yesterday. They have never been to this dentist before but luckily, it turned out to be a good experience. I don't know about you, but it was hard for me to find a dentist for my kids, that we all liked. This place was nice, simple and not hard to get to. We also didn't wait forever in the waiting room and they cleaned their teeth pretty fast...which makes it a lot easier for the kids to not be so nervous when they have to go back.
Kayli needs braces. Shocker!! lol We have an appt. in March, for her to see an orthodontist for a consultation. The dentist told me that Kayli's over-bite is over-pronounced. Which is a nice way of saying, 'your daughter has some major buck teeth...her grill needs mad help!'
Neither of them had cavities. So that is awesome!
Kayli needs braces. Shocker!! lol We have an appt. in March, for her to see an orthodontist for a consultation. The dentist told me that Kayli's over-bite is over-pronounced. Which is a nice way of saying, 'your daughter has some major buck teeth...her grill needs mad help!'
Neither of them had cavities. So that is awesome!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Kayli
My kids are not perfect by any means. They get punished a lot. But we praise them a lot too, when praise is what they deserve...
Each month, starting after the 1st marking period, 2 kids from each class and each grade win the Wall of Fame, for some reason or another. Last month, we received a note in Kayli's folder saying she was selected for the 'Wall of Fame' for the month of Nov. It was a surprise for Kayli. We were not to tell her anything about it. The day of the assembly, Laney, Matt and I were sitting in the bleachers at Wrightsville Elem. School, waiting to see our baby girl win the award.
Their teacher calls them up to get their certificate and tells everyone why this child is getting the award this month. Kayli won hers because she is respectful to others. Her teacher said, Kayli is so easy to get along with, is always smiling and happy. Helps other kids out when they are having trouble. And she can count on Kayli to always get the work done. My eyes filled with tears as I heard what the teacher was saying and as I watched Kayli walk up to get her award. Her little fists were clenched from excitement and she had a huge smile on her face. I was (am) so proud of Kayli. I know it is not a huge deal. It is just a 2nd grade award. But for an 8 year old to win a 'respect' award, is something in my book. Esp. when that child has a mom like me...not too sensitive, usually selfish and swears like a sailor.
I hope Kayli always has pride in her heart. I hope she grows up to be un-like me. She is so amazing and I love her to pieces.
Each month, starting after the 1st marking period, 2 kids from each class and each grade win the Wall of Fame, for some reason or another. Last month, we received a note in Kayli's folder saying she was selected for the 'Wall of Fame' for the month of Nov. It was a surprise for Kayli. We were not to tell her anything about it. The day of the assembly, Laney, Matt and I were sitting in the bleachers at Wrightsville Elem. School, waiting to see our baby girl win the award.
Their teacher calls them up to get their certificate and tells everyone why this child is getting the award this month. Kayli won hers because she is respectful to others. Her teacher said, Kayli is so easy to get along with, is always smiling and happy. Helps other kids out when they are having trouble. And she can count on Kayli to always get the work done. My eyes filled with tears as I heard what the teacher was saying and as I watched Kayli walk up to get her award. Her little fists were clenched from excitement and she had a huge smile on her face. I was (am) so proud of Kayli. I know it is not a huge deal. It is just a 2nd grade award. But for an 8 year old to win a 'respect' award, is something in my book. Esp. when that child has a mom like me...not too sensitive, usually selfish and swears like a sailor.
I hope Kayli always has pride in her heart. I hope she grows up to be un-like me. She is so amazing and I love her to pieces.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Well, well, well...
So, guess what I did today? I went to the gym. I did 45 mins of cardio and burned about 700 calories. What? What? I lifted weights, too and did sit ups. I came home and noticed how damn good I looked, after doing all that. Ha! NOT!
Anyway, after the gym I went to McDonalds for a coffee. I love their coffee, so much! When I got home, I sat and watched Laney play the Wii, while I drank my coffee. Laney told me, "Look mom at dis game. Jus look at dis. Imma real gangsta ninja. For real...a life one." She was playing Scooby-Doo and did pretty well. I was impressed.
After lunch, we headed over to a friend's house for a playdate. Ever since Laney started pre-school she and Brecia have been really good friends. Brecia is Laney's first 'friend'...a friend that she made on her own, away from mom/dad/Kayli. I love the way they play and their convos they have. They have some deep conversations, let me tell you!! ha! Brecia's mom, Jess, is pretty cool too. I like talking to her. We get along well and have a lot in common. Better than going to a playdate and not being able to stand the mom or dad. :)
Today was a productive day. I am glad I went to the gym b/c not one time did I get pissed off today. I am serious when I say that exercising makes you a happier person!
Anyway, after the gym I went to McDonalds for a coffee. I love their coffee, so much! When I got home, I sat and watched Laney play the Wii, while I drank my coffee. Laney told me, "Look mom at dis game. Jus look at dis. Imma real gangsta ninja. For real...a life one." She was playing Scooby-Doo and did pretty well. I was impressed.
After lunch, we headed over to a friend's house for a playdate. Ever since Laney started pre-school she and Brecia have been really good friends. Brecia is Laney's first 'friend'...a friend that she made on her own, away from mom/dad/Kayli. I love the way they play and their convos they have. They have some deep conversations, let me tell you!! ha! Brecia's mom, Jess, is pretty cool too. I like talking to her. We get along well and have a lot in common. Better than going to a playdate and not being able to stand the mom or dad. :)
Today was a productive day. I am glad I went to the gym b/c not one time did I get pissed off today. I am serious when I say that exercising makes you a happier person!
Monday, December 12, 2011
Slacker
I have been totally slacking in going to the gym, lately. It started last year when Kayli was off of school for Christmas break. I promised I'd start after the New Year (2011). I went here and there, but not near as much as I did in 2010. I stay the same weight no matter what I do. I am destined to be festively plump. I mean, we all know skinny is overrated. I think I weighed my lowest, in my very early 20's, when I was 120 lbs. And even then, I thought I was fat. I looks at pictures of myself from back then and I cannot believe I thought I was fat. Whatever, being 'fat' or not, isn't really the point. When I was going to the gym on a daily basis, I was happier and had more energy. "Exercise builds endorphins. Endorphins make people happy. Happy people do not kill their husbands." That is so true! But, guess what? I had all my gym stuff out and ready to put on this morning. I was even up at a good time to get the girls ready for school and have them there, on time. Did I go to the gym? Nope! I had my workout clothing on, breakfast ate and decided I didn't feel like going. How bogus am I?! I'd rather sit on my fat a$$, drinking coffee, while watching Regis and Kelly. Tomorrow I am planning on going to take Zumba. Hopefully, I can get out of this funk, b/c I hate being lazy.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
20 months have passed...
I don't know why I stopped blogging. Too busy? Bored with it, maybe? Who knows? Sometimes I have nothing to say or nothing that is worth writing about, anyway. This post may even be my only post for a long while...I just don't know. :)
Since I blogged last, many thing have happened. I will share some with you, my 2 or 3 readers...
Matt is currently unemployed. It is so wonderful spending time with him. Every single minute of every single day...such a beautiful thing. (note the sarcasm). I think unemployment is 'code' for 'lets play Xbox all day long.' I don't know, I could be wrong?!
Laney has been diagnosed with PFAPA. I discussed this in my older posts...I dont want to explain what it is, again. If you want, you can Goggle it. If you don't want to, I don't care. It is not life threatening and she should grow out of it.
My dad was in the hospital again, in September of 2011. His kidney's were failing. Don't know why, though. The Dr.s do not know either. Doug is a medical mystery. The only man that can go to the hospital on his death bed. Not only once, but 2 times in the past 2 years. And yet, he recovers fully and goes on living his life as if nothing ever happened. Weird!
Laney has been going to preschool. She started in September 2010. She is currently in her 2nd year of PS and is doing awesome. Laney makes me proud. She is very different than Kayli. Not too sensitive, unless being told, "no." Her drama is at a minimum, usually. I mean, she is a girl, so of course there is drama. She says the silliest, weirdest things, that only a 'Laney brain' could come up with. I love her to pieces and I am dreading the fact, that she is my youngest and starting Kdg in the fall. I love Laney's hugs and kisses and when she wants to cuddle with me. She is so awesome, sweet and a wonderful little sister. She tries so hard to be like Kayli, and although she may never admit this, I know she looks up to her big sis. She loves playing the Wii and is so good at all of the games! She is perfect from head to toe (in my eyes) and I could not live without my little Laney 'Loo.'
Kayli is in 2nd grade. She is a fabulous, awesome, dramatic, talkative child. She is so caring for a kid. Her heart is genuine. And I cannot begin to say, how proud I am to be her mom. Yes, she gets on my last nerve. Bugs the shit out of me, a lot of the time. But I could not ask for a better child. I am her mother and that is why she gets on my nerves, so much. But I know, she is 110% pure awesome-sauce when in school, or any place, other than home with me. She is a great big sis to Laney. She always tries her best at everything and usually succeeds. She is not too good at video games, but is excellent at art and reading/writing. Kayli is the one who made me a mama and to me, there is no better gift. I <3 both of my girls too much to explain. They are my world and I know they think I am pretty cool, too!
We got another kitty. She was born in March of 2011. We got her in May of 2011. Her name is Princess Bubblegum. She is a spaz. She is cute and fluffy and got so big, so fast!! This brings our kitty total to 3. Yes, I know a lot of people do not like cats. But I don't care, because I do. If I could, I'd have like 20, b/c there are so many that need homes!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Happy easter
Easter was great this year. A perfect day in every way! Hope you all had a very Happy Easter!
chocolate in my egg!!
chocolate in my mouth
chocolate on my mouth
photo shoot...
chocolate in my egg!!
chocolate in my mouth
chocolate on my mouth
photo shoot...
Cheers
This past Saturday, Kayli started cheerleading. It is only for 6 weeks and only held on Saturdays. She has been telling me she wanted to do cheerleading for the past 2 years. Matt and I were sort of leary about putting her in it...I dont know why. I guess the whole cheerleading thing and I dont mix. I mean, I am sooooo not the cheerleader type and I never wanted to be one of those crazy cheerleader moms. Since Kayli is only 6, we figured it couldnt hurt to let her try. Her age group is only for 5 and 6 year olds and all of the girls seem to be equally as bad as the next! Kayli loved it and was so excited. She literally had a smile on her face the whole time. Laney took the pictures so I do not have too many good ones. However, for a 3 year old they arent too bad. 
Monday, February 22, 2010
Kitties,again
I really love these two furry, little things! They are so cute and sweet. What makes me love them even more is the fact that they are both very good w/ the kids'. Laney hangs on them, shoves their heads down almost like she is pinning them against the floor just to give them kisses/hugs. They are a great fit to our family. I am glad I became a kitty lover!
Willis adores Moxie!
so cute!
Willis adores Moxie!
so cute!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
quotes by kids
I feel the need to jot down some of these sayings my kids have. They are very unique and odd. But I find them interesting. I wonder what really goes on in their little noggins. I will translate some for you since Laney speaks an entire different language.
Laney will burst out in laughter no matter what she is doing, where she is at or who she is around just to say, "I fawted."
Kayli said to me, "I liked Logan. You know, more than a friend. But he wanted to be just friends. And I understand the just friends thing, you know mom? I was OK with that. But now he is in love with me. But I hate to tell him that I am not going to marry him."
Laney loves to play "house disney play" Playhouse Disney. She loves to eat "koookies" and "trackers" but she hates "humberg barbecube" and the color, "whipe" (white). She calls all bras "boops" and when I correct her and say, "no it is 'bra'" she says, "oh brawps" She just starting saying "frog" for frog. It used to be "the fuck says riffit" She also used to call the beach "bitch."
Kayli always says something is "my favorite and my best". I think she got that from Charlie and Lola?! Love that show by the way! When she gets mad she says, "oh pickles" "oh tuna" or "oh barnacles" and some other things I cant put on here out of embarrassment. haha What else is funny to me, because she really has no clue. She will ask me when (someones) baby is due if she sees a heavier lady. (She doesn't say it to them). If it is someone she sees often she will say, "wow, that baby has been in there for a long time. When is it coming out? There has to be more than a head in there now." She thinks the head of the baby grows first??!! And lately she has been telling me, "mom you don't have a muffin anymore...it is more like a little cupcake. You know, since you've been working out." She knows what a 'muffin top' is because I have had way too many comments about muffin tops!
And the last thing, off the top of my head...Laney always says, "my do it" OR "mine turn" It is always my or mine no matter what 'tense' it is in. Crazy kid!
Laney will burst out in laughter no matter what she is doing, where she is at or who she is around just to say, "I fawted."
Kayli said to me, "I liked Logan. You know, more than a friend. But he wanted to be just friends. And I understand the just friends thing, you know mom? I was OK with that. But now he is in love with me. But I hate to tell him that I am not going to marry him."
Laney loves to play "house disney play" Playhouse Disney. She loves to eat "koookies" and "trackers" but she hates "humberg barbecube" and the color, "whipe" (white). She calls all bras "boops" and when I correct her and say, "no it is 'bra'" she says, "oh brawps" She just starting saying "frog" for frog. It used to be "the fuck says riffit" She also used to call the beach "bitch."
Kayli always says something is "my favorite and my best". I think she got that from Charlie and Lola?! Love that show by the way! When she gets mad she says, "oh pickles" "oh tuna" or "oh barnacles" and some other things I cant put on here out of embarrassment. haha What else is funny to me, because she really has no clue. She will ask me when (someones) baby is due if she sees a heavier lady. (She doesn't say it to them). If it is someone she sees often she will say, "wow, that baby has been in there for a long time. When is it coming out? There has to be more than a head in there now." She thinks the head of the baby grows first??!! And lately she has been telling me, "mom you don't have a muffin anymore...it is more like a little cupcake. You know, since you've been working out." She knows what a 'muffin top' is because I have had way too many comments about muffin tops!
And the last thing, off the top of my head...Laney always says, "my do it" OR "mine turn" It is always my or mine no matter what 'tense' it is in. Crazy kid!
Matt
I had a great day. Nothing out of the ordinary happened. My mom came down to watch the girls so Matt and I could have some time away...some time to ourselves. Thank you mom! You have no idea how much we appreciate it and how much the girls loooooove when you come to babysit or visit them.
Matt and I went to Friendly's for lunch. Our favorite unclassy place to eat. They have great ice cream. Yum :) I love being with Matt. I love being able to sit and talk to him about anything and everything. Especially w/out the kids' interrupting us. I don't think he will ever know just how happy I am when I am with him. We agree on a lot and also disagree on a lot too. He likes salty, I like sweet. He likes ham, I like turkey. He loves ketchup and I love mayo. We are so different but a lot a like too. I was just very happy to have a few hours with him.
Obviously we do not have a 'perfect' relationship...who does? But he is perfect for me. I am pretty sure he feels the same about me because anyone who knows Matt knows he doesn't like a lot of B.S. He is not the fancy kind of guy who needs a fancy kind of gal. And I certainly am not a fancy kind of gal. I know that because when I wear a pair of pants (other than jeans) and a shirt (other than a hoodie) Kayli tells me I look very "sassy and fancy." I bet she'd have a heart attack at the tender age of 6 if she saw me in a dress!! haha
I am just so lucky to have wondered around aimlessly for so long in my life, that I bumped into Matt on the way. He is the butter to my bread. And we both love butter bread!!!
Matt and I went to Friendly's for lunch. Our favorite unclassy place to eat. They have great ice cream. Yum :) I love being with Matt. I love being able to sit and talk to him about anything and everything. Especially w/out the kids' interrupting us. I don't think he will ever know just how happy I am when I am with him. We agree on a lot and also disagree on a lot too. He likes salty, I like sweet. He likes ham, I like turkey. He loves ketchup and I love mayo. We are so different but a lot a like too. I was just very happy to have a few hours with him.
Obviously we do not have a 'perfect' relationship...who does? But he is perfect for me. I am pretty sure he feels the same about me because anyone who knows Matt knows he doesn't like a lot of B.S. He is not the fancy kind of guy who needs a fancy kind of gal. And I certainly am not a fancy kind of gal. I know that because when I wear a pair of pants (other than jeans) and a shirt (other than a hoodie) Kayli tells me I look very "sassy and fancy." I bet she'd have a heart attack at the tender age of 6 if she saw me in a dress!! haha
I am just so lucky to have wondered around aimlessly for so long in my life, that I bumped into Matt on the way. He is the butter to my bread. And we both love butter bread!!!
Mine bounce
Laney's exact words were, "look...watch MINE bounce." After she was done bouncing she said, "look at mine run."
happiness
I love the way my girls are always wide awake (at 6am) ready to start their day, every single day! They never wake up grumpy. They are always happy and grateful to be alive. They love life and every single thing that comes their way. Even the little things that we as adults take for granted they appreciate. Like the sunshine waking up for the day. Or a pair of sparkly jeans w/ butterfly pockets. If that isnt refreshing then I do not know what is?!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
On Valentine's Day we went to my parent's house for dinner and some cake that Kayli and Nanny made. Kayli and I went to their house early, while Laney was at home napping, so we could...ehhhem, let me rephrase that...so THEY (Kayli and Nanny) could bake a cake.
Kayli's favorite person, ever! Her Nanny :)
the cake was a big hit!! 
the new dresses nanny and pop bought for them
Kayli's favorite person, ever! Her Nanny :)
the cake was a big hit!!
the new dresses nanny and pop bought for them
Wall Of Fame
My sweet little Kayli won this award yesterday for being an outstanding artist and kid writer. My mom, dad, Matt, Laney and I all went to the little assembly they had at the end of the school day. How cheesey is it that I had tears in my eyes when her teacher called her up for it. Oh, but I am just so proud of her! Yay, Kayli!! We love you :)
ranting...
This post will be all about me...bitching about stuff. Well, not so much "bitching" as maybe whining. Maybe not even whining...you can say I am just wishing for 'stuff' that is unobtainable at this time in my (our) lives and there are times when it really makes me sad (I guess that's the word).
Where to begin?? Let's see, today, Matt went to the VW dealership to talk to someone about the lease that is ending on our car in April. Obviously, we were excited because we were thinking we could get a new car out of it. Another lease of course. He came home to talk to me before he made any decisions. Basically, it came down to us keeping the car and paying for the inspection next month and having to have everything (literally) fixed or replaced. And still having a monthly payment close to what we pay now for 4 more years. OR putting some cash down and getting a new car. We chose the new car route, well, because we really love new cars. Who doesn't?! And if we hand it in before the end of March, we won't have to pay for our car to get inspected and all the other things that need done to it.
I am very glad Matt decided to come home and talk to me first. I appreciate that in him...he does always ask my opinions. They want $3200.00 and that is including the 'loyalty cost' that they deducted. it was $4000.00. To me, that is CRAZY!!! Literally I was amazed at how much everything is these days. I just sat there and wanted to cry. We got our tax money back a few weeks ago. And every year we try to do something to our house. Last Year it was the deck. The year before that, we replaced the computer desk, the TV, our kitchen/dining room floors. You get the point. This year we were all set to get 2 replacement windows. One in Kayli's room and one in Laney's room. Our house has all newer windows except, those two and the one in the bathroom. We do not even have screens to fit in the windows so over the summer/spring the upstairs in always so stuffy since no windows are open except for the two in our room. We went to Lowe's the end of January to get an estimate. They came out to measure and check out the windows. They called us w/ a price and we were all set. We were going to get 2 new windows. We haven't called to set up a date for them to put the windows in because of the snow. I guess I am glad we didn't do that yet. Even though, I really, really want new windows. If we get this car we most likely will not be able to afford the windows. I tried talking Matt into getting a used Jetta and he said no because then nothing is covered on it. Oh yeah, did I mention all the maintenance services of the (new) car are covered?! Never heard of that but that is what Matt said the salesman told him.
Anyway, I just sit and think of how much there is I want to do to our home. The windows, the garage, the garage roof, a new fence, carpeting our stairs, getting the electric updated (we only have one outlet in each room upstairs),new furniture in Laney's room. And the list goes on! If I had a job, a good job. Maybe we could afford these things. If Matt would actually get a pay check when he is supposed to maybe we wouldn't have some of the problems we have. Considering he works his butt off for pretty much nothing these days! But I wont get into that now...that is a whole other post!! I really should say, we do not have money problems. We do fine with what we have and we have no debt. I really do just want more for us. Don't get me wrong. I am grateful for what I have. I (we) have a roof over my head. Clothes on our back, food in our fridge and my kids are spoiled rotten. I see all these homes for sale and I always say, "oh wow, I wonder how much they're asking for that?" And the response is always the same, "it doesn't matter, we cant afford it." I know not many people can just up and go buy a house. And I do not expect to ever be able to do that. It just seems that so many things get put on hold for so long.
I want a bigger house w/ a (nice) fence. A house w/ a hallway and doors (we have no bedroom doors upstairs). I want a yard where my neighbor doesn't let her fence fall into ours and just let it lay there until Matt picks it up. I want to be able to do whatever it is we have to do with our car and not have to put anything else on hold for another year. I get frustrated and discouraged. It is partly my fault. I could have went to college and had a 'real' job that pays decent money. I see all these other people my age or even younger. People I went to school with, etc...and they have the huge house with several sassy cars, a pool w/ a jacuzzi. A Maid, a nanny, a pet sitter. And to top it off, they stay at home w/ their children while their husbands work. WTF??!! That gets me. And I will say, I am sooooo jealous!
I am grateful for my family (all of you). I am grateful for my home. I am grateful for our cars. I am grateful for the health of my children, my husband and myself. I am grateful for my cute little kitty cats. So after reading this do not think I am not grateful. I just get in that zone where I linger on the 'wants' instead of what is right in front of me. I am going to admit it...even after knowing, seeing and feeling all the love in my life and all the things I am grateful for I still want those windows damnit!!! LOL
If you read all of this go get yourself a cookie or something. You deserve it!! But please tell me I am not the only one who feels like this at times?!!
Where to begin?? Let's see, today, Matt went to the VW dealership to talk to someone about the lease that is ending on our car in April. Obviously, we were excited because we were thinking we could get a new car out of it. Another lease of course. He came home to talk to me before he made any decisions. Basically, it came down to us keeping the car and paying for the inspection next month and having to have everything (literally) fixed or replaced. And still having a monthly payment close to what we pay now for 4 more years. OR putting some cash down and getting a new car. We chose the new car route, well, because we really love new cars. Who doesn't?! And if we hand it in before the end of March, we won't have to pay for our car to get inspected and all the other things that need done to it.
I am very glad Matt decided to come home and talk to me first. I appreciate that in him...he does always ask my opinions. They want $3200.00 and that is including the 'loyalty cost' that they deducted. it was $4000.00. To me, that is CRAZY!!! Literally I was amazed at how much everything is these days. I just sat there and wanted to cry. We got our tax money back a few weeks ago. And every year we try to do something to our house. Last Year it was the deck. The year before that, we replaced the computer desk, the TV, our kitchen/dining room floors. You get the point. This year we were all set to get 2 replacement windows. One in Kayli's room and one in Laney's room. Our house has all newer windows except, those two and the one in the bathroom. We do not even have screens to fit in the windows so over the summer/spring the upstairs in always so stuffy since no windows are open except for the two in our room. We went to Lowe's the end of January to get an estimate. They came out to measure and check out the windows. They called us w/ a price and we were all set. We were going to get 2 new windows. We haven't called to set up a date for them to put the windows in because of the snow. I guess I am glad we didn't do that yet. Even though, I really, really want new windows. If we get this car we most likely will not be able to afford the windows. I tried talking Matt into getting a used Jetta and he said no because then nothing is covered on it. Oh yeah, did I mention all the maintenance services of the (new) car are covered?! Never heard of that but that is what Matt said the salesman told him.
Anyway, I just sit and think of how much there is I want to do to our home. The windows, the garage, the garage roof, a new fence, carpeting our stairs, getting the electric updated (we only have one outlet in each room upstairs),new furniture in Laney's room. And the list goes on! If I had a job, a good job. Maybe we could afford these things. If Matt would actually get a pay check when he is supposed to maybe we wouldn't have some of the problems we have. Considering he works his butt off for pretty much nothing these days! But I wont get into that now...that is a whole other post!! I really should say, we do not have money problems. We do fine with what we have and we have no debt. I really do just want more for us. Don't get me wrong. I am grateful for what I have. I (we) have a roof over my head. Clothes on our back, food in our fridge and my kids are spoiled rotten. I see all these homes for sale and I always say, "oh wow, I wonder how much they're asking for that?" And the response is always the same, "it doesn't matter, we cant afford it." I know not many people can just up and go buy a house. And I do not expect to ever be able to do that. It just seems that so many things get put on hold for so long.
I want a bigger house w/ a (nice) fence. A house w/ a hallway and doors (we have no bedroom doors upstairs). I want a yard where my neighbor doesn't let her fence fall into ours and just let it lay there until Matt picks it up. I want to be able to do whatever it is we have to do with our car and not have to put anything else on hold for another year. I get frustrated and discouraged. It is partly my fault. I could have went to college and had a 'real' job that pays decent money. I see all these other people my age or even younger. People I went to school with, etc...and they have the huge house with several sassy cars, a pool w/ a jacuzzi. A Maid, a nanny, a pet sitter. And to top it off, they stay at home w/ their children while their husbands work. WTF??!! That gets me. And I will say, I am sooooo jealous!
I am grateful for my family (all of you). I am grateful for my home. I am grateful for our cars. I am grateful for the health of my children, my husband and myself. I am grateful for my cute little kitty cats. So after reading this do not think I am not grateful. I just get in that zone where I linger on the 'wants' instead of what is right in front of me. I am going to admit it...even after knowing, seeing and feeling all the love in my life and all the things I am grateful for I still want those windows damnit!!! LOL
If you read all of this go get yourself a cookie or something. You deserve it!! But please tell me I am not the only one who feels like this at times?!!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
loves the small things...
she just loves her new crown, earrings, necklace and dress her Nanny got for her! Thank you so very much Nanny and Pop Pop!
Laney's new bed
We finally got rid of Laney's crib. She is now in a big girl bed and so far she is doing well. A couple times she gets up during her nap but at night she sleep the entire time. I am so happy to have her in a big bed now. She looked ridiculous sleeping in a crib!
all snuggled up for her first nap in her big bed
excited, she's a big girl now!
we added stickers and a night table
her little step stool...
new 'pegs' to hang stuff on!
all snuggled up for her first nap in her big bed
excited, she's a big girl now!
we added stickers and a night table
her little step stool...
new 'pegs' to hang stuff on!
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